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Musings for Healing

Panjoyah's Sharings
The Spiritual Body
Avoiding The Unnecessary Danger of Future Thoughts

"Be here now"... "staying present"... "grounding into body" -- new age catch- phrases that can leave us going 'Yeah, sure, ok ... so what are we doing after lunch?' New-ageisms sound too pat nowadays, and we want something more concrete, some applicable awareness that can help us heal our lives.

Try this one on for size -- we are safe, invulnerably safe, if we stay put in our current moment, breathing, doing, being... whatever we are doing and being. There is no danger in the moment! We can' t be hurt if we are in our bodies, fully. When we jump ahead of ourselves, when we spin future pictures based on assumptions, judgments, plans, and pictures of various sorts, we are by definition out of the moment and generating fear, or excitement. It's either "going to be so good" or "going to be so bad".

When fear is generated by the passing pictures, it is not often processed. And this is how we set ourselves up for "reversals", experiences that set us back. By generating more fear that is not then processed, we put ourselves in danger, without even realizing it. Unprocessed fear and the judgments that accompany it have a tendency to attract the very experience feared. We can avoid fear generation by staying as present as possible, refusing to go down the ratholes of the pretty or scary visions. And of course, when we do feel afraid, it is vital to feel and organically express the fear, not technique or rationalize it away. How to return to the moment when I've left it? Just do it. Just come back, accepting that I left for awhile, and express the fear generated by the dangerous experience of having left the safety of my fully embodied moment. Excitement can be expressed too... judging fear or excitement wrong or bad to exist or express is not healing and dealing. "I release the judgment that my fear is wrong to be." Verbal, out-loud releasing of judgments is crucial to assisting myself to stay present. Which, by the way, is not the same as blocking out all thoughts -- it means having the "loving discipline" to bother noticing what feels like truth to incorporate into the moment, and what feels like a distraction that pulls me out of my body. Practicing being able to tell those two types of thoughts apart can assist in learning to tell the difference.

My fear has been that if I allowed myself to stay completely present, letting the pictures of future possibilities roll by unexplored, that I would constantly get blindsided and unprepared for incoming situations. But, what does "prepared" really mean? Armed to the teeth with expectations of how I am going to handle the situation that has not yet come to pass? That behaviour only locks the future into the past. I can't allow magic, epiphany and serendipity into my new moments if I have already decided how I will respond and act ahead of time. When I do that, I miss the impact of the new experience and my organic response to it.

How will I make informed decisions without considering all the angles in advance? Ask for inner guidance and accept that I have the power to KNOW what to do when the right time comes for acting and responding. Taking full responsibility for my experiences, including my old imprints of victimization and perpetration, means accepting and getting comfortable with my ability to respond. Response-ability generates acceptance, which generates a greater sense of comfort with myself, which generates an increasing ease with staying present in my body, which generates trust and safety instead of more fear and danger.

"When the moment for decision comes, the choice will be obvious."

I am currently working on expanding these articles into a book, which I would prefer to self-publish for many reasons. If the material resonates for you and you would like to support its birthing process by making a donation to help cover publishing expenses, ask questions, make a comment or simply get on the mailing list, please contact me at Donations can be made to that address via StormPay, or to IntGold ID 12022. Thanks for reading!

Peter Cloud Panjoyah, British Columbia, May 2004

All material copyright 1997-2004 Panjoyah

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