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I have spent forty years In the service of your kind Forty long years Now it's my turn. I am changing the game I am burning the rules And tearing up the pieces of paper I am recovering who I AM I am not for you to judge I am not for you to heal I am not to do it your way Any longer. I loved you once I may love you again But your dreams are like cyanide They poison my pen You are not wrong And neither am I We have our own ways We have our own ties To each other, no less There are many lies Don't you know O father, O Dad, let me go It's okay I'll let you go too It's not wrong Tho it may make us blue When we hold to the past And grieve not The tears Those old cold tired ways In those long ago years That little boy is here He still lives inside But I've cast aside wallage Of time, and the tide Of your pictures of reality Your pictures of death Your dreams that have died Your dreams I have left I let you go, o father, That I may know you anew If ever, o ever Our parallels true True to each other Mingling once more The old you is dead Don't you know? You're no more You are dead, you are dead I allow you to die Inside me Yet like a phoenix from the pyre The love we have shared Whatever is holy Will take us To the next step We shall yearn for the essence of each other To come back in our lives Without the presentation Without the barriers that separate us Walls seemingly too high to surmount Misunderstandings, controls Ah, you taught me to rule myself With an iron fist Go now, to the coals You and such dreams Such teachings They are but shadows Not trying to reach me Will you know me again? Will you know me anew? Will I ever let you? Notice you're not alive Notice you cease to move with the changes Notice the planet is passing you by Notice the death in your eyes Do you choose to look at the past You say is not there? Your past, your haunting childhood It's got you ensnared A childhood you never had A childhood of horror You cut it off so long ago And now you are no more You are dead, dead, dead, dead, DEAD copyright 1997-2002 Panjoyah |