HEALING AND DEALING ARTICLES
Love, Family, & Other Things
Reflections and Personal Responsibility
"As without, so within". Imagine a whole universe inside us. What does that
really mean, and how can that awareness help us heal? Aren't we just organic
tissue and fluids inside?
Assuming that there are more realms of existence than the physical,
everything we know to exist outside ourselves exists at some level of our inner
being. Everything we participate with outside us, we participate with inside, and
it follows that everything that happens to us experientially is going on inside us
already, perhaps at the subconscious levels of existence. That 90% of "unused"
brain has to have some function!
If there is a reason for everything that happens to me, and if I create my
own reality, then there are no such things as accidents, coincidences, and "luck".
The power of my amazing brain draws to me the precise experiences I need in
order to learn and evolve, and draws the experiences I need to release the latent
personal power trapped there in my subconscious.
Let's say somebody hits me after shouting at me and threatening me. I have
somehow brought this on myself, because, well, I create everything in my own
reality. Sounds good, but it feels bad. Why? Because there is more to the picture
than that. Yes, I have a dynamic inside me, that is indeed drawing this
"reflection" of my inner turmoil. But it takes at least two to create an
interpersonal incident. My abuser is the active party in the incident, and he has
responsibility for the action he has taken. But I too have responsibility for
drawing an exact, energetic match to the unreleased rage and terror trapped
within my subconscious, in a state of denial. Because this energy is denied, it is
not conscious. Because it is not conscious, it is not controllable, but emotional
energy is magnetic and draws to itself the exact experience necessary to bring
release. If someone's hitting me, I have an equivalent energetic charge inside me
that matches the outer reflection in precise proportion. I need these reflections to
learn about what I am holding, and why I am holding it, so I can release it instead
of continuing to deny it inside me.
The most effective way I have found to draw more pleasant experiences is
to safely release emotions, either with myself or a trusted healing partner. I do
this by expressing the emotions in sound, without hurting myself or anyone else.
I use pillows to beat, scream or cry into. I allow fear to express in keening wails or
simply allowing my jaw to chatter. If it doesn't feel right or possible for you, ask
your guides or God to put this emotional essence in its right place, feeling as
much passion as you can when you call for this. Release judgments out loud
about the situations you experience.
We can ameliorate the "negative intensity" of our experiences if we are
proactive about our emotional state and what we have denied since we were little
children. Emotional expression is power, and if we deny our power, it will
"reflect" outside ourselves as power in a state of denial working against us.
Taking responsibility in this context means feeling deeply into what our
experiences say about what we have been holding onto and ignoring for a very
long time, and doing something about it. That might simply be feeling what we
feel. When we can be mindful of this, then we can watch our reflections shift to
more of what we like and less of what we don't.
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Peter Cloud Panjoyah, British Columbia, May 2004
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